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Rambling around in my thoughts…

On the bottom half of this journey called living, I find myself revisiting my past. Lately in my dreams as well as when I’m awake.

I’m finding that my ability to remember stuff from a lot of my past …basically kinda sucks (at least to my mind)…

I’m gonna chalk that up to being too wrapped up in my own head ….. #mywayofthinking

and as bad (selfish) as that sounds …

It is better than the alternative…

sometimes it scares me how much I’m like my mom in some ways….

and yet I’m also disappointed at times… when I realize…I’m not like her at all in many of the ways I should be.

Aging ain’t for sissies as the say’n goes.



Originally posted on Luke Copping Photography - Blog:

In 2010 I wrote, in one long caffeine-fueled night, an article that would become the most widely shared piece that I’ve ever published on my blog called 10 Ways Not To Become A Successful Photographer. It was part missive, part rant, and part confession about what I saw a lot of people doing wrong in the photography industry at the time – the mistakes and toxic misconceptions that I saw myself and photographers around me, both emerging and experienced, making every day that were poisoning our minds and our work. I’ve read and re-read it so many times over the years, because in many ways it became a litany to stave off my own negativity when things got tough or I felt myself slipping back into those shitty patterns that were holding me and my friends back when I wrote it.

It’s five years later now, and I sometimes find myself wondering…

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Cosmic in Durham, North Carolina

Cosmic Cantena Stairway 2/11/2011

and Patio 4/9/2013



The softness of sunset..


Watching the light fade..

Beer and bokeh


Beer and Bokeh – playing with light, reflections and baubles

What floats YOUR boat?

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The progression of my professional life hasn’t been anything I could have foreseen when I was in my 20′, my 30’s or even my 40’s…

And now that I’m in the 2nd half of my 50’s…once again it has taken a turn I didn’t foresee, predict or even necessarily desire..

But in this latest turn of events, I’ll say I’m closer to being in a place that feels right … at least in this moment.

The uncertainties will always be there – and in retrospect I see – that they have always been there. We can be lulled into a false sense of security with the day to day sameness that happens.

Make no mistake, there is no such thing as lifetime security…at least not for most people.

So finding whatever it is that “floats your boat” – for at least that particular moment in time, is a blessing. A blessing to be enjoyed and savored like a fine wine.

And I’m thankful that at this moment in time, I’ve found it.

Finding the current


Sometimes finding the current requires being still…because the current is so slow and calm.

And once you find that current, you may still need to put forth some serious personal energy to move down stream…

It doesn’t mean you’re not following the right current – it just means there will be times when you’ve got to do the heavy work to make the next bend in the river.

The desire for immortality..

Contrary to appearances – I do not dwell in a dark place – but I do have experiences that make me think about some things a bit deeper.

I’m not a scholar nor am I a theologian – I’m not particularly religious except in the big picture kind of way.

I do think there are teachings from those that came before us..and the bible is a piece of that for me.

The story of Adam and Eve … (and please forgive my version of a synopsis);  when they ate from the ‘tree of knowledge’ which gave them an insight into the world based on God’s view has always intrigued me.

So let’s go with that.

Well here we have two newly formed beings that all the sudden have this knowledge of ‘sin’ and all that implies..

(Forget that they purportedly covered their private parts immediately – in my mind – that’s mostly where ‘man’s’ version of the story falls apart.)

However, I’m thinking – THAT is when man got its first taste of immortality – and it’s been downhill ever since.

We’re not meant to be immortal.

Dying is a part of living – it goes with the territory. But our quest for immortality has driven some intellectual gains beyond society’s ability to handle said ‘immortality’.

Medicine is advancing to the state of unequal balance.

Where will it stop? When will we give equal amounts of time, money and politics to all the pieces of how our society is ‘advancing’.

We first have to admit we are not meant to be immortal – we all have to die…and accepting that the fact that WHEN or HOW … is not usually a choice.

It is the ones that take us by surprise that hurt and slap that lack across our face. Those are the ones that make us cry out in pain and intense loss.

I mean no disrespect to anyone that feels the pain of the loss of a loved one.

I know that I offend those ‘lovers of life’ – the one’s that have that zest for living that makes them live every moment with zeal and appreciation.

I don’t mean to imply everyone should give up – however –

and here’s my point…. I do think it is OK to accept the fact that not everyone is a fighter.

I realize that my ramblings are not for everyone.




Life isn’t what we plan…

DockatHarkers Life isn’t what we plan – it is what happens while we plan. I’ve been working on a new venture for me – something way outside my comfort zone. Do I have what it takes? Are my skills something that others would pay for? Am I really as good as I think I am? Am I really as good as my friends say I am?  Am I risking everything I have on a dream that should just stay a dream? Why do I punch so many proverbial ‘holes’ in my confidence? Why do I question my abilities instead of building my confidence on them? What is that intangible trait that others have that I don’t have that makes them think they can and should … ‘just do it’? I read a quote today by Zig Ziegler – “If you aim at nothing, you will hit it every time.” and I ask myself – what am I aiming for? Can I unequivocally answer that? My aim seems to be a bit muddled, cloudy, shaky. At my age – shouldn’t I know by now what I want? And in that ‘knowing’ – shouldn’t I be able to aim for that and go for it without this unending doubt in myself and in the future? When your anchor is ripped from your starboard bow and the motor is just sputtering at half power and your compass has lost its direction….you feel as tho you are dead in the water. Some folks would say – ‘buck up – get to work and stay busy.’ Others would say – pray. And then there’s folks like me, who have spent most of their lives letting the current determine their direction…We need that nudge to show us a way to go. It isn’t that we don’t want to work. It isn’t that we don’t want to be productive members of society. What it is … is a need to see a way … a current … a flow of energy. To be sure not without rocks and rapids … because that is part of it – but at least a current to guide us in our journey. I’ve lost my current…and I’ve lost my anchor…and it feels like I’m in the dead water…


Many men go fishing all of their lives without knowing that it is not fish they are after. ~Henry David Thoreau



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